To The Unknown God

 Expectations, disappointments. Familiar? 

 

I guess what hurts more is the realization that the one you put your trust in couldn’t be trusted. It only took a flash of genius to finally get to the point where it finally tied together, and the realization hit you. But of course, this realization came after kissing a number of frogs… dirty frogs. What a pain.

 

See, life is hard by itself. Most of us get by because of what is called hope; hope that things will get better, hope that it will finally work out. But what if I told you that there is no light at the end of the tunnel, that the clouds have no silver lining, that its over fam- there is no good that lies on the other side, whatever that side is. What would you do then? Stone me? Call me pessimistic? 

 

Well, hold off the name calling because I have a reason for my hypothesis, a theory even. See, like all of you, I have been in situations of the greatest pain, turmoil and all that bad stuff. And like all of you, I hoped it would get better, but it didn’t. The pain, anger and frustration just grew and consumed me. The tale-tell of things working out was utter bullocks!

 

So, I finally decided to throw away the hope; the hope that things would get better, the hope that it would work out because for some of us, life isn’t that sorta fairytale… if you are in hell, that’s it my friend. Burn your soul away.

 

But what drove me to this realization was a small thing, a Hail Mary of sorts. I asked for a pittance, a small relief and it didn’t come. That’s when it dawned on me that I had been so foolish to believe in prayer, foolish to believe in God. Because each time I prayed fam, I was talking to myself. Nobody in the starry sky was sitting on the throne listening to my feeble requests. I was alone.

I felt so foolish for the fact that it took so long to get here; that it took so damn long to figure it out. I mean all the signs were there, but I couldn’t bloody see it.

 

There is something that they call people who don’t believe in God, fools, yeah? Well, call me foolish or whatever but I have reasons. And maybe you wouldn’t be so wise if you walked in my fucking shoes.

 

That's it for now. Mail this to whoever… preferably to the Unknown God.

 

Yours truly,

The One That Got Away.